Paris Jackson, daughter to the late Michael Jackson, is getting up close and person in the latest issue of Rolling Stone.

 

Rolling Stone | Feb. | 2017
Rolling Stone | Feb. | 2017

 

The 18-year old opens up about a number of issues, including her fathers passing, drug abuse, modelling, attempted suicide and how she was sexually assaulted by a random stranger at the age of 14.

 

In the February issue, Paris opens up about 13 things in her new tell-all, Paris Jackson – Life After Neverland.

 

1.) Paris says that her father visits her in her dreams –  “I feel him with me all the time,” she says, admitting that she’s still not over his tragic death. “They always say, ‘Time heals,’ but it really doesn’t. You just get used to it.  I live life with the mentality of ‘OK, I lost the only thing that has ever been important to me.  So, going forward, anything bad that happens can’t be nearly as bad as what happened before. So I can handle it.”

 

2.) Paris claims that in the 7th grade, she did not fit in with her classmates, which lead to her depression and drug use: “I was doing a lot of things that 13-, 14-, 15-year-olds shouldn’t do.  I tried to grow up too fast, and I wasn’t really that nice of a person.”

 

3.) Paris opens up about her assault from when she was a teenager, “I don’t wanna give too many details, but it was not a good experience at all, and it was really hard for me, and, at the time, I didn’t tell anybody.”

 

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4.) She attempted suicide at least three different times – “It was just once that [a suicide attempt] became public.  It was just self-hatred, low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn’t do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living anymore.”

Paris tried to commit suicide back in June of 2013 (15 years-old) by cutting her wrists and taking at least 20 Motrin pills (Michael Jackson passed away June 25, 2009)

 

5.) As of right now, Paris has over 50 tattoos, 9 in which are dedicated to her father and admits that some of the tattoos she has cover up markings on her body from using drugs, “I was crazy. I was actually crazy.  I was going through a lot of, like, teen angst. And I was also dealing with my depression and my anxiety without any help.”

 

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6.) Paris says that she’s “scared” for Justin Bieber – she explains that after seeing him perform on his recent tour, he looked exhausted – “He was tired, going through the motions of how my dad was exhausted all the time but couldn’t sleep.  I’d tell [my dad], ‘Let’s take a nap, because he looked tired. We’d be in school, meaning downstairs in the living room, and we’d see dust falling from the ceiling and hear stomping sounds because he was rehearsing upstairs.”

 

7.) Modelling helped with Paris’ confidence and she made her debut at this years Paris Fashion Week, “Plenty of people think I’m ugly, and plenty of people don’t.  But there’s a moment when I’m modelling where I forget about my self-esteem issues and focus on what the photographer’s telling me — and I feel pretty. And in that sense, it’s selfish.”

 

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8.) Paris addresses Michael being her biological father, even though many have claimed he’s not, “He is my father!  He will always be my father. He never wasn’t, and he never will not be. People that knew him really well say they see him in me, that it’s almost scary.  I consider myself black.  [My father] would look me in the eyes and he’d point his finger at me and he’d be like, ‘You’re black. Be proud of your roots.’ And I’d be like, ‘OK, he’s my dad, why would he lie to me?’ So I just believe what he told me. ‘Cause, to my knowledge, he’s never lied to me.”

 

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9.) THE BIG ONE: Paris truly believes that her father has murdered.  Although Dr. Conrad Murray served only two years in prison for his involvement with the passing of Michael (Michael received a strong dose of anesthetic propofol), Paris still believes that her father was murdered,

 

“Because it’s obvious.  All arrows point to that. It sounds like a total conspiracy theory and it sounds like bulls**t, but all real fans and everybody in the family knows it. It was a setup. It was bulls**t.  He would drop hints about people being out to get him, and at some point he was like, ‘They’re gonna kill me one day.  

 

She continues with, “I definitely [want justice], but it’s a chess game, and I am trying to play the chess game the right way. And that’s all I can say about that right now.”

 

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10.) Along with her older (Prince, 19) and younger brother (Blanket, 14), they never realized how big their really was, “I just thought his name was Dad, Daddy.  We didn’t really know who he was. But he was our world. And we were his world.  We had school every single day, and we had to be good.  And if we were good, every other weekend or so, we could choose whether we were going to go to the movie theatre or see the animals [in Neverland] or whatever. But if you were on bad behaviour, then you wouldn’t get to go do all those things. … We couldn’t just go on the rides whenever we wanted to.”

 

11.) And when it came down to it, Michael prepared each of his children for the ‘real word’ – “He did not bulls**t us.  You try to give kids the best childhood possible. But you also have to prepare them for the s***ty world.”

 

12.) Paris expresses how her father would get very emotional – “My dad would cry to me at night.  Picture your parent crying to you about the world hating him for something he didn’t do. And for me, he was the only thing that mattered. To see my entire world in pain, I started to hate the world because of what they were doing to him. I’m like, ‘How can people be so mean?  Nobody but my brothers and I experienced him reading A Light in the Attic to us at night before we went to bed.  Nobody experienced him being a father to them. And if they did, the entire perception of him would be completely and forever changed.”

 

And lastly, 

 

13.) Paris claims that visiting the Museum of Death, located in Hollywood, California to be in her words, very soothing #What?

 

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Michael Jackson once said to Paris, “If you wanna be bigger than me, you can. If you don’t want to be at all, you can. But I just want you to be happy.”

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